I wonder what this season holds for me. I have some important decisions to make concerning the Christmas season. I would love to join in on all of the blogs listing their favorite things this time of year, but I can't. I am still in limbo waiting on the Lord for his guidance and direction on my husband's decision to follow a certain churches beliefs on holidays.
It used to be that I felt like I had all of this joy inside of me-kinda like an eight foot Christmas tree with 1500 lights on it. That is the amount I would usually use, give or take a couple thousand! Now I just feel like someone has pulled the plug on my joyous heart.
My ringtone, when I had a cell phone, was "Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas" sung by the one and only Judy Garland herself-AND was used all year long.
I hung stockings and filled them with candy coins and stuff I knew my boys would love. Race cars and little pretend shaving sets. Gum balls and chocolates.
My boys seem to be taking this better than I. They know Santa isn't real-my husband never grew up with that, but I did. I grew up with Santa and Halloween and all the other "pagan based" holidays and I'm not in some cult or worse. It was fun while it lasted and made for a joy filled, memory-making childhood. I mean, how much of oneself can you give up without losing all you are? Can you really re-write what makes you happy?
Have nothing to look forward to? Just accept things to keep peace and go along with it when it's not in your heart? What an unhappy, untruthful farce of a life....
Now that I have my reality out there on the table, in my heart, these are the things I love during this time of year-
Watching snow falling Kenny G's Christmas CD
Hot Chocolate with tons of marshmallows The Christmas Story read on Christmas Eve
Throwing Beautiful Dinner Parties for Family & Friends Watching my boys play in the snow
Christmas Trees being adopted on top of vehicles A blazing fireplace
Christmas trees decorated-professionally or by the hands of children and families
Baking things for people enjoy Decorating every room in the house Candles (lit)
Live Violin playing "Silent Night" (it brings tears to my eyes!) Fleece Gloves A Long Wool Coat
Cream Colored Cable Knit Sweater (preferably borrowed from someone male) Cities/towns decorated
Houses decorated with wreaths, candles in windows, lights and red poinsettias Christmas Carols/Music
Businesses that have one little tree out in front decorated with lights (random act of beauty!)
A shoveled off pond Fleece Anything Super Soft Lap Blankets Anything Glittery
My Mom-In-Law's Christmas Earring Collection Snow Covered Roads that haven't been driven on yet
Niece and Nephew's Christmas Programs Ice Skating Walks in Snowy Woods Hiking Boots
Egg Nog Christmas Cookies (eating AND making!) Hallmark and Lifetime Seasonal Movies
Christmas Villages The Overwhelming Joy of Buying for Others (and trying NOT to tell them!)
Creative Present Hiding Wrapping Presents Making Christmas Cards Christmas Day Calls
Huge Icicles that hang from roof to ground (on houses with too little insulation) that look like waterfalls
Red Rosy Cheeks (kissed while still cold) The Idea of Santa Angel Tree Toppers Felt Ornaments
Old December Issues of Victoria Magazine Beautiful Special Occasions Dresses for Little Girls
Getting Someone that one thing they REALLY wanted Ribbon Candy Snowmen
Drifts higher than a house (only saw one back in 1978!) School Closings/Snow Days
Playing Card Games while the wind howls outside Bells on Store Entrances
"Feeding The Chickens" (putting salt on the sidewalk) Nutroll from Corey Brothers Bakery
Rozkys The Nutcracker Suite Garland Decorated Mailboxes Pine Boughs
Flavored Candy Canes A Snowflake Up Close Flannel Nightwear Slouch Socks
My Dollhouse (a Greenleaf Pierce done in Victorian Christmas 1904) Memories of Christmas Past
My skating skirt, wool coat, Jody Doll and Diorama, (and other favorite past Christmas Gifts)
Staying up 'till past midnight assembling/wrapping gifts for the boys Animated Snow Screensavers
Snow Globes Christmas Tablescapes Train Sets that run around the Christmas Tree base
Watching Bubble Lights Yearly purchasing ornaments for the boys that corresponded with their interests to given them when they had trees of their own (name and date on bottom)
Super Huge Gigantic Cow Femur for DC (our German Shepherd) smaller one for Laddie Boy
Special Steak Dinner on Old Country Roses China just for Hubby and me on Christmas Eve
Not ONE Store Open on Christmas Day (used to be)
Well, if you're still with me, that's all I can think of for right now. It's not just giving up what I thought was a celebration of Jesus' Birthday, it's all it was and meant to me, too-which was showing Him to others more than any other time of the year....it just seemed easier when everone else was thinking along the same line.